Dedicated jan 8! Happy Birthday!

I am undecided yet advising, i am ignited yet calm, i am not cold yet shivering , my head's on the bed, yet your pictures in it. I am no Zayn, Zac or a cool dude. but they do the things meant for you! sorry, it could not be me, i get high on thoughts and write some stuff, but i always mess up, can't help that. not a lie, i am telling the truth, i could be fantasizing all the good, but you feel like the one of clouds, try mirror in your inner self, i think you are just creating some secrets. Honestly, i feel like being watched by the gods, they are pulling the string from behind, you were Eurydice and I was Orpheus . God couldn't stand us in the underworld, they felt so jealous, they brought us to earth we were brought just so the envious nature, the world would dominate how we feel. The god challenged us to free ourselves from this just so the snake would be deadly and non living. God envied us in underworld, they were so burned with anger, they planned to separate...

Of course you know the line, "God is director, World is Stage and we are actor." Well, William just gave in the most safest way to live. You will fall and rise, Be first to know lots and decide what to hide, Celebrities do this all the time. Its their attitude that determines, if people with discuss with them for another day. Its so easy now, realness stays with you, give the world what they expect. Choosing your way, the place where you stay. Its a new place now, Choose the effort before result.

Whatsoever, i don't have to write, but i just don't see another place to explain, i am so drowned here, i might not get up. This could either be big well or a plot hole. regardless the point, i don't know how but it feels you read them when i write. Hits so god, i think i'll propose i don't know but, just doesn't fit where it should, cut the crap out and i am out. i am uneducated, scared and relentless. I am going through it, all in my zone, in my space nobody said me about you. life is in the way. i can't undo what's done and do what's meant to be.

it's one am now, you are with me of course, we are on the bus, remember? the exam is right on the edge. Quite blurry you might say, All i have done is froze that moment, the perfect gaze. ¡ H old up!

Now, can't hold no more. Regularly, I see the girl, It's like, you are right there and I couldn't walk. Every time I try to talk, I just get stuck., What's the difference though being on either side is the same yo! I keep on thinking these words but I feel like being weaken. How hard could it be, I know, but i don't. You take up my mind, all day and all night. All i do is freeze right there and never tell. But now's not the same, i gotta to live young and live forever, no, no one could do this alone. I am asking for a favor, C'mon help me out to be gold.

Sometimes, I pull myself apart shift the shape to act like pulling a cart guess I am human, work of art. Truth is so complicated. I try to live with the facts. the curious, innocent heart , never knows, love always comes under attack. Trying to open up the mind, be liberated from the fact, never knew the person in the mirror, Oh, I once loved that full part.!

I wish i could bubble wrap my heart. in case i fall and break apart. I am not God, i can't change the stars, but i can't do anything with things things you are going through. I know this is the hard time, but doing your part is mostly right. Everyone's little dazed and confused. See me, I could write a book on how to be jerk and waste people's mind. but its no time to cry. Just cheers to life for giving the ride, and going back to darkness is no choice. Just got to live your life and be happy and surprised.